19 weeks – first day. Ultrasound showed measurements of week 19, day 3. Highlights duri ng ultrasound:
1. As the technician applied the gel to my not-as-big-as-I-remember-it-at-this-stage-before belly, Henry exclaims, “Whatintheworld? You gonna fry an egg?” I must admit, it did feel like an excessive amount of gel.
2. Wow, what a spine! All of our children are slight and even at age 8 or 10 you can still see their spines through their skin. I often call them “riblets” when they are toddlers and running through the house with a diaper and no shirt. So, we are definitely brewing another Riblet.
3. Really? That’s a kidney? Looks like a shadow to me.
4. Most important: gender. Well, we didn’t find out. I wanted to, so desperately. After four boys, you can imagine my desire and justification for such information. Actually, until we crossed the threshold of the exam room, I was the one pushing to find out, even if just to have it sealed in an envelope. So Henry begins asking for an envelope and I waved my hand in a “this is what I want…and I will have what I say” manner stated, “We don’t want to know.” True, I was lying. I did want to know. I still want to know. But as I explained to Henry and the technician, my desire to know will be outweighed by the regret I would feel once knowing. It would be too much to bear. So instead, I’ll remain in the dark for another 21 weeks.
What’s 21 weeks when I’ve remained ignorant of such things for a collective 179 weeks?
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